Uneasy Feeling...

I can't sleep...I want to, but unfortunately my nerves won't let me. I still have some last minute touch ups to do various projects, but I can't seem to focus today. I have so many things that need my attention, needless to say I have no attention span...I'm suffering from a major case of brain freeze....my equilibrium is off and I need to get it together....fast..,

The title states that I'm feeling uneasy.....that would be correct. I'm feeling this way because I've let so many things get under my skin today which is unlike me. It started when I got the mornings paper--two teenagers were killed...another was beaten to death last week..then it just set off a chain of events in my mind; I haven't been able to shake it sense.....

Angst...fear...tiredness...

If it appears like I'm babbling, it's because I am.

There is no structure when you are are too tired to really focus....

It's puzzling me--

Why am I typing here when I have so much to do?

I'm not focused...

I'll get to it...no doubt..I always do.

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May 30th, my grandad passed...I miss him sooooo much~

June 20th, my niece was murdered...she passed a day before her 19th birthday.

July and August were uneventful....

This month, on Labor Day, my uncle dies of a heart attack while playing basketball....he was 45.

My friend CD was shot in his leg two days ago, just standing outside talking to friends....

I'm a pretty strong person...I grieve in my own special way...I understand what it means for life to go on...you have too, especially if you have so much to live for...but today.... Cant get these poor kids out of my mind, particularly because of how my niece was murdered....I'm overloaded with too much negative emotion...so I thought, maybe I'd blog about...maybe I'd feel better....I have to admit, I feel better than I did at first...

I don't like too much negativity. I need to regroup....